Well it aint much, but it's home.

bull shit! I start fucking working the 27th and that’s cool fine dandy whatevs well fucking I got that stupid ass card that you get paid with instead of getting the option for direct deposit  and fuck everything if my first pay check goes into that i am going to be PISSED! It already has my name on it and everything. AND I don’t know if I am going to have to work Monday and or Tuesday DUMB! Do I look like i want to work on Monday?! NO I WANT TO DRINK! I want to get smashed and jump in the lake at Jennys like we have done every year since I was a freshman. Well we didn’t drink then but this was supposed to be fun! I know that cool I have a job and I needed to start working but fucking it’s taken a goooood month to start working. I fucking went in three weeks ago and they would fucking make me work on a weekend that nobody else wanted to work. Fuck that fuck everyone I am so pissed. AND I don’t even get paid until the 15th. What kind of shit it that. I fucking rushed to take my drug test a few weeks ago so that i could start working a few weeks ago already have shit under my belt. Fucking dumb i only get like 6 paychecks at work because of how long it takes them to do shit. I’m just all around pissed and have NO money and I need $40 for next month and my gym membership. I seriously could not be more irritated.

     I also can’t fucking breath still and there is no AC in my house. My dad and I are about to go work out just so that we can go to a place with AC. It sucks trying to shower but not being able to dry off because it’s so hot in the fucking house. This whole thing it Dumb. It works some times and just doesn’t work when it truly gets hot out. Fucking dumb.

     I just want to go to the beach. I’m not sure why Nikki and I never thought to just go to Lake Erie. We always want to go to a beach so bad but we always are thinking of places that are 6+ hours away when boom Erie is only a little more or a little less than three hours. Plus it would be so nice to be able to start to have my worlds to be brought together We could go to a beach and my friends could all come together. Spend a day in Mentor get to go to the beach with Nikki, have my friends meet, we would be able to stay at Bridget’s maybe even mark would come to the beach too! That would be so cool.

     I absolutely love my friends that hare here but I do miss my AK home. It’s weird literally waking up every day and having these people around eating dinner being bored having adventures with. Things move so much more quick in college. Then only times that we wern’t is when we were in class or in the shower and even then there were countless times where I need to shower and they just sit in my room. I miss them and I hate that everyone’s three hours away. It doesn’t sound that bad but it is when you don’t have a car.

     I don’t know i’m just not ready for things to be so different next year. I hope they don’t change for the worst and i’m not ready to just jump into the same ol same ol kind of summer.

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